Hallelujah!?

Lately, I've been so depresed?
Sometimes I feel so invisible. I feel like no one even notices that I'm alive. Those are the times I actually feel ok.
Then there's other times when I'm the center of attention, but never in a good way. The only time I'm noticed by people is when I do something wrong.
I'm on the edge of breaking down.

All I want is _ _ _ _. The one thing I can never have. It hurts knowing you can never have something that you want so bad.

Today my moms friend went to go clean her dads house and help him out ( he's really old ). When she got there she woke him up he ate breakfast watched a little TV and went back to sleep she woke him up a few hours later and he stayed up for an hour then went back to bed and a couple hours after that she woke him up and asked him why he's been sleeping so much, and he said "I'm just getting ready to die, it's going to happen soon." I thought that was one of the saddest things I've heard in awhile.

Midterms are soon, which makes me evern more stressed out than normal. It's also sorta good knowing the year is half way over and right after midterms I'm going to florida. [:
Then I come back and get my permit. [:




I want to run away.