Update.

Well, i haven't written on here in a while, 5 or 6 days? Anyways, so yesterday people came to fix my Fernes or heater or whatever. lol. But, apparently they broke it even more and now my hole house smells like gas and it's freezing. lol. i find it very funny, my mom.. not so much.

Speaking of my mom, she pisses me off. Beyond belief, i don't know why but i just can't stand her anymore. She does everything in her power to get me in a bad mood, and guess what it works. UGH!

So my grandmother got in a car accident. She passed out well driving and flipped her car. It was on Wednesday i think then she stayed in the hospital till Friday and she's been back since. My mom's like flipping out whenever i ask her a question she's like "how am i supposed to know my mother was just in the hospital for three days." I'm like "whatever." She makes it seem like she was hurt so bad. NOTHING was wrong with her except they kept her in just to see why she passed out.

Hm..i don't think there's anything else really to talk about. Oh. so i joined weight watchers 4 weeks ago. (i just ended my 4th week today) and I've been doing alright. In three-ish hours I'm gonna go get weighed and hopefully i did good. I think i did because my clothes are starting to get bigger on me and my scale says i lost like 4 pounds this week, but i don't know. I'm kinda worried because last week i thought i did really bad but i did good so this week i think i did good but i would've done bad. You can't really guess.

Now I'm kind of just rambling and i need to stop. lol. Oh. wait i have one more thing to say on Monday i broke my phone. So on Friday i got my number transferred to my old phone and they shipped me a new one and i got it today and it's working and yeah. This is my 3rd enV in 11 months. lol. Good stuff. Now I'm broke though, because it cost 50 dollars for the new enV and 10 dollars to switch my phone over each time so that's 70. Then two Fridays ago i went to lake compounce and that was like 30 dollars. So that's the hundred i had and now i have maybe like 15 in change. So, i gotta start saving up again. lol.

Well, now i think I'm done. NO! i lied lol. on Saturday it was homecoming i was supposed to hang out with Nichole and Carissa but Carissa was at six flags so me and Nichole and twill went to the haunted trail thing at chatfeild park. Then we went back to Nichole's house, and at like 10:30 we went to go pick up nick (which i wasn't to thrilled about) then we got back to Nichole's and yeah. Some stuff was funny, some was awkward, but it turned out better then i thought i guess. lol.

The day before so Friday. Me and Nichole went to go see Melissa and Kayla preform for the half time show at the football game. It was funny we got there right before they went on and left right after they got off. The dance team was eh.. i mean the dancers were good like they could dance but the choreography was really bad all they did was run and jump. lol.

Anyways now I'm definitely done. lol. i don't really think anything else happened.. lol. so yeah.. I'm done. xoxo!

Breakdown.

I honestly think I'm having a mental breakdown. I can't stand this anymore. I hate practically everyone, and the few people I like are either to busy with there problems to talk or to far away. I get meaner and meaner everyday. I have no patience anymore for anything. I'm doing horrible in all my classes. I don't understand anything. I don't do anything but listen to music and sleep. I feel like no matter what i do everybody is judging me or no matter how good i do at something someone else did better and it's all about them or if i do something good people always have to point out the flaws. The problem is..this isn't just happening all of the sudden. It's just that I've held it in for so long that I've finally cracked.

Three Years.

Just three more years and i could get out!

Catastrophic Accidents.

Lately, I've been feeling really..lonely? i don't even know why. I mean me and my friends are all good and everything and my life really hasn't changed that much in the last 3 months, but i don't know. I've just been feeling really depressed lately. Like i always wanna go to bed really early even tho I'm not tied and i never wanna get up but I'm wide awake. It's like i just wanna sit in my bed and let my life pass me by. I just can't wait for Friday so i could get my cellphone and just come home and sleep. =\
well, i have a huge headache right now and i want silence, but if its quiet then i feel sick.. so I'm kinda screwed at the moment. =[
so.. i guess that's it for now?

Life in the fast lane.

OK.. so i don't really know what I'm even gonna write about? uh.. I'm basically just gonna bitch about what's been going on lately and stuff i guess. lol.
on Friday in gym (or P.E. or whatever you want to call it) we were planing cone ball and it's basically just some stupid game where you through balls at cones and people and try to either knock down all the cones or get out all the people. so. i was guarding a cone and helping my team and actually playing ( because usually i never do) and this kid _ _ _ _ _ throws a ball at my face and i swear it was going like 40mph. It hurt so bad i like grabbed my face turn and like ran out the door and my teachers flipping out on me for leaving and stuff but anyways.. now i have a black eye. it looks so bad. ugh, and tomorrow i have to go to school and people are gonna be like " omg what happened to you " i don't wanna hear that all day!
another thing..
i love my friends to death but, sometimes i feel like they i don't know look down on me? It seems like they feel like there better then me, and yeah i guess they are.. but, i don't know. They always tell me about there problems ALWAYS. and I'm OK with that because i want to help them. Then when i can't listen or i don't know what to say they get mad or there like "thanks for caring" and i just wanna get up and be like " I've listened to you bitch for 2 years and now yer gonna sit here and make it seem like i don't care?" I'd never have the guts to do it though.. if they listened to me when i bitched then it wouldn't be this big of a deal but i almost never complain to them ( at least i try not to) and i don't know. i just had to get that out.
To top it all off, my phone decided to break.. it spazzed out and i think like exploded? i don't know what happened but it's totally broken and i cant get it fixed until about Friday that's even if they can fix it. It's hard for me to go 5 minutes without texting now i have to go 5 days .. or LONGER! i don't know if i could do that. :'[
Well.. i guess that's it? i should probably go sleep.