Monday, December 29, 2008
Cellular Device.
Um.. I'm attempting to blog from my phone. So, this is just to see if it's going to work. [:
Yay.
AHH! i'm really excited!
ok so first i'm going to florida with nichole for 1/23 to 1/27 [: [25 days]
then on febuary 17th we're going to see ludo, sing it loud, the provence, and the morning sun. [: i love ludo and sing it loud the other two are okay. lol. [51 days]
ok so first i'm going to florida with nichole for 1/23 to 1/27 [: [25 days]
then on febuary 17th we're going to see ludo, sing it loud, the provence, and the morning sun. [: i love ludo and sing it loud the other two are okay. lol. [51 days]
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Story of my Life.
Just when you think things are starting to go write they turn on you. Correct? That's how it always is with me and everytime it gets harder. You's think i'd be used to it by now.
Friday, December 26, 2008
12/26/2008
Wow. I haven't written on here in a long ass time. It's almost 2009! scary man! anyways. It's the day after christmas an i'm pretty content. [:
I'm basicly just writing on here because it's 11:29pm and i can't sleep.
So..yeah nothing new has really happened.
Oh for christmas i got OSU stuff. [: (other stuff too but i don't feel like typing)
I really have no idea what to write. so i guess i'm finished.
I'm basicly just writing on here because it's 11:29pm and i can't sleep.
So..yeah nothing new has really happened.
Oh for christmas i got OSU stuff. [: (other stuff too but i don't feel like typing)
I really have no idea what to write. so i guess i'm finished.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Plans for the Weekend.
i feel so sick. not fun. ugh. i don't wanna do anything this weekend but i got a lot to do. =\
Friday night i have to go to the animal shelter for a few hours then baby-sit. Saturday I'm going to cut down a Christmas tree with my cousin's and decorating it, then i got to go shopping for my friends birthday present? and Sunday i don't know i think (if it doesn't snow) I'm going over Nichole's for a little then were walking down to the Christmas parade to see Melissa and Kayla then i think i might be going out for lunch-ish dinner-ish with her and her family for her birthday. so yeah. sounds fun.
[kc101]
Friday night i have to go to the animal shelter for a few hours then baby-sit. Saturday I'm going to cut down a Christmas tree with my cousin's and decorating it, then i got to go shopping for my friends birthday present? and Sunday i don't know i think (if it doesn't snow) I'm going over Nichole's for a little then were walking down to the Christmas parade to see Melissa and Kayla then i think i might be going out for lunch-ish dinner-ish with her and her family for her birthday. so yeah. sounds fun.
[kc101]
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Stressed Out.
Okay, so school lately..insanely stressful. i have an essay do on something I'm not even sure about, i have like 4 HUGE tests, I'm trying to bring up my grade in all my class, i had to present a french presentation today and UGH! i don't know. i know I'm doing alright in school, but i know i could be doing lot better.
Home life hasn't been that easy either. My mom just annoys me whenever she's around. Just her presence stress me. she keeps bugging me about my weight and ugh. i just wanna be like "STFU!" but i can't because then I'll get bitched at even more. woho!
so yeah this is gonna be short because i have to go study for algebra, and geometry, and biology. xoxo!
[bullet for my valentine - waking the demon]
Home life hasn't been that easy either. My mom just annoys me whenever she's around. Just her presence stress me. she keeps bugging me about my weight and ugh. i just wanna be like "STFU!" but i can't because then I'll get bitched at even more. woho!
so yeah this is gonna be short because i have to go study for algebra, and geometry, and biology. xoxo!
[bullet for my valentine - waking the demon]
Monday, December 1, 2008
That's What's Up!
wow. i haven't written anything on here in a long time, but my computers been all fudged up so yeah.
um.. Thanksgiving happened..so Happy (late) Thanksgiving. :]
every things been good i guess. so my mom bought the plane tickets and the hotel and stuff and were going to Florida ( Nichole, my mom, and me) on the 22ND through the 27Th. I'm really excited. me and Nichole have this count down [[52days<3]]
so when we go to Florida there will be swimming and in order to swim we need to be in bathing suits and I'm like huge so i look like shit in a bathing suit so my goal is to lose 50lbs before we go, but since i gained like 2 this week i don't think that's gonna happen.
ugh i was doing pretty good on my diet but this week i totally just killed it i gained at least 2 of the 12lbs i lost back so now i got to lose those plus 50 more.
school is torch er. i can' stand it or the people in it, and i still have another four days left until the weekend. i hate waking up at 5:30 in the morning. it sucks, but i got an idea. since i always forget to write blogs at night and sometimes i remember but my computer's just messed up. I'll start writing then in the morning so i don't forget. so then I'll have to wake up at 5:00. ewe.. OR! i could wake up at 5:00 and work out. :] yeah i like that plan. i doubt I'll actually go through with it though.
so i can't think of anything else to write about so I'm going to stop here,. xoxo!
[no music]
um.. Thanksgiving happened..so Happy (late) Thanksgiving. :]
every things been good i guess. so my mom bought the plane tickets and the hotel and stuff and were going to Florida ( Nichole, my mom, and me) on the 22ND through the 27Th. I'm really excited. me and Nichole have this count down [[52days<3]]
so when we go to Florida there will be swimming and in order to swim we need to be in bathing suits and I'm like huge so i look like shit in a bathing suit so my goal is to lose 50lbs before we go, but since i gained like 2 this week i don't think that's gonna happen.
ugh i was doing pretty good on my diet but this week i totally just killed it i gained at least 2 of the 12lbs i lost back so now i got to lose those plus 50 more.
school is torch er. i can' stand it or the people in it, and i still have another four days left until the weekend. i hate waking up at 5:30 in the morning. it sucks, but i got an idea. since i always forget to write blogs at night and sometimes i remember but my computer's just messed up. I'll start writing then in the morning so i don't forget. so then I'll have to wake up at 5:00. ewe.. OR! i could wake up at 5:00 and work out. :] yeah i like that plan. i doubt I'll actually go through with it though.
so i can't think of anything else to write about so I'm going to stop here,. xoxo!
[no music]
Sunday, November 16, 2008
11/16/2008
so tomorrow starts a new week. hopefully this week won't include any bomb threats. it's gonna be the longest week ever. it's the only 'full week in November for school days. this week there's no half days or anything. which is really depressing, but next week is thanksgiving. that's exciting. :]
what else. oh on Wednesday for lunch instead of eating cafe food my french teacher is buying us lunch and were gonna hang out in the class room and eat it. cool right? and on Friday I'm going to see Nichole preform in her ECA show i think.
i put up a Christmas tree in my room. it's fake obviously but its cute its little but not super tiny. i like it. :] i decorated it was all my ornaments and it's so cute. but i can't find my doggy ones my dad gave me. oh well. I'm sure i will once we really start decorating.
that's it for now i guess it's 9:45 and i need to go to sleep so i could wake up at 5:30 get ready and go to school and attempt to find my books that are somewhere in the school. xoxo!
[Diary of Jane - Breaking Benjamin, Dirty Pop - Nsync]
what else. oh on Wednesday for lunch instead of eating cafe food my french teacher is buying us lunch and were gonna hang out in the class room and eat it. cool right? and on Friday I'm going to see Nichole preform in her ECA show i think.
i put up a Christmas tree in my room. it's fake obviously but its cute its little but not super tiny. i like it. :] i decorated it was all my ornaments and it's so cute. but i can't find my doggy ones my dad gave me. oh well. I'm sure i will once we really start decorating.
that's it for now i guess it's 9:45 and i need to go to sleep so i could wake up at 5:30 get ready and go to school and attempt to find my books that are somewhere in the school. xoxo!
[Diary of Jane - Breaking Benjamin, Dirty Pop - Nsync]
Saying Sorry.
if guys say 'sorry' when they don't even know what they did can they really mean it?
[dead cell - papa roach]
[dead cell - papa roach]
Ohio State University.
i really want to go there after i graduate from high school. I'm not to sure why, when i was younger like maybe 12. i became obsessed with Ohio and i wanted to go there as soon as possible so i figured college was my best chance.
so i started researching it and stuff. it's actually a really good school, and that kind of worries me, because my grades aren't that good so there's a very good chance that i might not be able to get in.
but I've already decided if i can't get into OSU than I'll go to a different college in Ohio. I'm sure there's at least one college i could get into
that's located in the state of Ohio. if not than i have a problem.
[crazy bitch - buckcherry]
so i started researching it and stuff. it's actually a really good school, and that kind of worries me, because my grades aren't that good so there's a very good chance that i might not be able to get in.
but I've already decided if i can't get into OSU than I'll go to a different college in Ohio. I'm sure there's at least one college i could get into
that's located in the state of Ohio. if not than i have a problem.
[crazy bitch - buckcherry]
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Twilight Series.
yeah. I'm addicted to these books. i read the first and second one three times the third one twice and the last one I'm reading for the second time.
i really wanna see the movie because i love the books but i don't because, i don't know it's complicated. it's like i wish i was in the book? like i said. it's complicated. oh well. just thought I'd let you know. xoxo.
[kc101]
i really wanna see the movie because i love the books but i don't because, i don't know it's complicated. it's like i wish i was in the book? like i said. it's complicated. oh well. just thought I'd let you know. xoxo.
[kc101]
11/15/2008
eh! I'm bored. it's Saturday and i have absolutely nothing to do. it's a tad depressing. i would take Liz (my dog) for a walk but it's pouring out so i guess I'm not doing that. i was thinking about cooking but since it's Saturday there's like no food in the house which really sucks. so i decided to write a blog.
i could finally change my second and third earrings but there majorly infected which is bad, every ones telling me i should take them out. i know i probably should but i don't want them to close up. so now i just clean them for like an hour a day. my cartilage is fine though. in a few days i will be able to change it, but i don't think i will because I'm afraid i wont be able to get it back in.
oh so last night at November thunder. wow. it was longer then i remember. and the little kids that surrounded us would not shut up. i yelled at this kid in front of us and he shut up for like a minute? oh well. the ending was good though they had this band. play then wright after they had that drummer and another drummer have like a battle? ha ha. it was fun.
so yeah yesterday was pretty amazing. oh and they found out who did the bomb threat and the person is 17 and a former student apparently?
whatever. i really don't have anything else to write about so I'm gonna stop. xoxo!
[kc101]
i could finally change my second and third earrings but there majorly infected which is bad, every ones telling me i should take them out. i know i probably should but i don't want them to close up. so now i just clean them for like an hour a day. my cartilage is fine though. in a few days i will be able to change it, but i don't think i will because I'm afraid i wont be able to get it back in.
oh so last night at November thunder. wow. it was longer then i remember. and the little kids that surrounded us would not shut up. i yelled at this kid in front of us and he shut up for like a minute? oh well. the ending was good though they had this band. play then wright after they had that drummer and another drummer have like a battle? ha ha. it was fun.
so yeah yesterday was pretty amazing. oh and they found out who did the bomb threat and the person is 17 and a former student apparently?
whatever. i really don't have anything else to write about so I'm gonna stop. xoxo!
[kc101]
Friday, November 14, 2008
Bomb Threat.
i haven't written on here in awhile, but that's because nothing really important has been happening. except for today.
so this morning i wake up go to school. you know the usually. so I'm sitting in first period and Goodrich tells all the teachers to read there emails and it says lock your doors, so we do. then we go into a phase one lock down and were all kinda freaking out because a few days ago this kid threatened to shoot up the school. anyways so me and Nichole and the rest of the class is sitting there and they say phase two lock down. then we obviously knew it wasn't the kid because they wouldn't have all the kids out in the hall. so we go in the auditorium and the police show up and no one is telling us anything. so of course were all freaking out and thinking the worst. then they tell all kids who drive to school to go get in there cars and go home. so now every ones totally freaking out because something is obviously wrong. then they tell the rest of us that buses are coming to pick us up. so were all scarred and i decided to go to Nichole's house with her so they call her buss number and they had like 3 different buses on one buss and the buss was packed! we get to Nichole's at like 9 o'clock and it turns out there was a bomb threat and it was all over the news and everything. so yeah. *they wouldn't let us go to our locker so Nichole doesn't have her ipod and Melissa doesn't have her camera and all of our books are in our first period class.*
me and Nichole ended up playing scrabble for two hours then we walked to the sandwich man and had lunch then played around in job lot. her mom came and got us we went to the hair cut place and Nichole got her hair cut. then we go ice cream at McDonald's and ate it in the parking lot. like a half hour ago they dropped me off at my house.
and later tonight at like 5:30 - 6:00 I'm going to November thunder at the middle school with Melissa and Nichole. fun fun. xoxo!
[jason mraz - i'm yours, pink - so what, seether - like sucide]
so this morning i wake up go to school. you know the usually. so I'm sitting in first period and Goodrich tells all the teachers to read there emails and it says lock your doors, so we do. then we go into a phase one lock down and were all kinda freaking out because a few days ago this kid threatened to shoot up the school. anyways so me and Nichole and the rest of the class is sitting there and they say phase two lock down. then we obviously knew it wasn't the kid because they wouldn't have all the kids out in the hall. so we go in the auditorium and the police show up and no one is telling us anything. so of course were all freaking out and thinking the worst. then they tell all kids who drive to school to go get in there cars and go home. so now every ones totally freaking out because something is obviously wrong. then they tell the rest of us that buses are coming to pick us up. so were all scarred and i decided to go to Nichole's house with her so they call her buss number and they had like 3 different buses on one buss and the buss was packed! we get to Nichole's at like 9 o'clock and it turns out there was a bomb threat and it was all over the news and everything. so yeah. *they wouldn't let us go to our locker so Nichole doesn't have her ipod and Melissa doesn't have her camera and all of our books are in our first period class.*
me and Nichole ended up playing scrabble for two hours then we walked to the sandwich man and had lunch then played around in job lot. her mom came and got us we went to the hair cut place and Nichole got her hair cut. then we go ice cream at McDonald's and ate it in the parking lot. like a half hour ago they dropped me off at my house.
and later tonight at like 5:30 - 6:00 I'm going to November thunder at the middle school with Melissa and Nichole. fun fun. xoxo!
[jason mraz - i'm yours, pink - so what, seether - like sucide]
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Saturday, November 8, 2008
11/8/2008
aye! this is going to be a quick blog. It's kind of just like a recaps of what happened tonight.
so i went to the mall with Nichole, Kayla, and Melissa. it was pretty fun. i didn't get anything though and that kind of depressed me.
oh, but we did get to take a picture with Santa! After we (well more like Kayla) came up with a name for us. klmn [Kayla, Lindsey, Melissa, Nichole] like in the alphabet. i like it. lol.
then me and Nichole left early and went to to toys R' us and we played with horses and saw mini laptops and Nichole did a work out dance? lol.
when i got home i decided to organize all my pictures on my computer, and i did and it took a while. lol.
now it's 1 in the morning and I'm beat. so I'm gonna go to bed now. xoxo!
[silverstein - my heroine]
so i went to the mall with Nichole, Kayla, and Melissa. it was pretty fun. i didn't get anything though and that kind of depressed me.
oh, but we did get to take a picture with Santa! After we (well more like Kayla) came up with a name for us. klmn [Kayla, Lindsey, Melissa, Nichole] like in the alphabet. i like it. lol.
then me and Nichole left early and went to to toys R' us and we played with horses and saw mini laptops and Nichole did a work out dance? lol.
when i got home i decided to organize all my pictures on my computer, and i did and it took a while. lol.
now it's 1 in the morning and I'm beat. so I'm gonna go to bed now. xoxo!
[silverstein - my heroine]
Friday, November 7, 2008
11/7/2008.
it's friday night and i have no plans. good right? i don't even care though. i can't wait till i get my lisence so i could actually do stuff, but i have a feeling that's not going to be for a long time. Getting money would also be helpful.
PINK! haha. she just came on the radio. i like this song. "nah nah nah nah nah nah" i love pink. she's a really good singer, and i love her attitude. :]
my hairs really been annoying me lately. i spend like an hour or forty five minutes in the morning strighting it and by 2nd period its like curly. ugh.
so last night the power went out apperently, because i woke up and nothing was working. it was bad. i woke up because i thought i was late for school and i took a shower and got ready and it turns out it was 4. i was so mad. even thought i woke up an hour early i was still 'late' for the buss.
well, this is gonna be pretty short because i don't really know what to write about and i got to go find plans. CRAP! it's friday. i might have to baby-sit. well, i don't know it wouldn't be that bad if i had to because i could deffinitly use the money.
so, either way i'm done.xoxo!
[kc101]
PINK! haha. she just came on the radio. i like this song. "nah nah nah nah nah nah" i love pink. she's a really good singer, and i love her attitude. :]
my hairs really been annoying me lately. i spend like an hour or forty five minutes in the morning strighting it and by 2nd period its like curly. ugh.
so last night the power went out apperently, because i woke up and nothing was working. it was bad. i woke up because i thought i was late for school and i took a shower and got ready and it turns out it was 4. i was so mad. even thought i woke up an hour early i was still 'late' for the buss.
well, this is gonna be pretty short because i don't really know what to write about and i got to go find plans. CRAP! it's friday. i might have to baby-sit. well, i don't know it wouldn't be that bad if i had to because i could deffinitly use the money.
so, either way i'm done.xoxo!
[kc101]
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Failure.
i have no idea what I'm going to write about. i just took a shower and i had nothing to do. i finished my book and i have no homework. i probably should study for biology, but i didn't take any notes today. smart me. i know. anyways, i figured why not write a blog? i haven't written one in like two days maybe three. I'm not to sure,either way it's been awhile since I've written. so yeah.
"Break me down if it makes you feel right, and hate me now if it keeps you alright. You can't break me down if it takes all your might because I'm so much more than all your lies."
that's my favorite part of the song. sdfghgfds! i feel really shitty and i just wanna die right now because I'm sure it wouldn't be this miserable. i officially had it with my life. sleeping sounds good right now but all I've done this week is sleep, that's how shitty i feel. I've slept at least 55 hours this week, but i don't sleep i kinda just lay there I'm not really asleep but I'm not awake, it's like I'm 'dead'. I'm even starting to do really bad in school. in the beginning of the year i was doing really well. now I'm barley passing any of my classes, and it's really stress full because my mom puts so much pressure on me to be good and not turn out like my dad or brother. she wants me to be the "first kelems to go to graduate from college, she'd be so proud.' she has that like drilled in my head, but in the back of my head i know I'll never get in a college, not a good one at least. Then I'll be a disappointment to her, which sucks. as for my dad, he doesn't care what i do, i know this because he moved 564 miles away from his kids and he doesn't even call. I'm lucky if i talk to him once a month. It sucks because i haven't seen him in almost a year and i miss him, and he's not that healthy and my worst fear is him dying and me not being able to say 'goodbye'. sometimes i feel like I'm totally alone like I'm an orphan? my moms always working and my dad's gone and my brothers got his own life now. it's like if i was 'gone' would anyone notice? or care?
[seether - break me down, three days grace - wake up]
"Break me down if it makes you feel right, and hate me now if it keeps you alright. You can't break me down if it takes all your might because I'm so much more than all your lies."
that's my favorite part of the song. sdfghgfds! i feel really shitty and i just wanna die right now because I'm sure it wouldn't be this miserable. i officially had it with my life. sleeping sounds good right now but all I've done this week is sleep, that's how shitty i feel. I've slept at least 55 hours this week, but i don't sleep i kinda just lay there I'm not really asleep but I'm not awake, it's like I'm 'dead'. I'm even starting to do really bad in school. in the beginning of the year i was doing really well. now I'm barley passing any of my classes, and it's really stress full because my mom puts so much pressure on me to be good and not turn out like my dad or brother. she wants me to be the "first kelems to go to graduate from college, she'd be so proud.' she has that like drilled in my head, but in the back of my head i know I'll never get in a college, not a good one at least. Then I'll be a disappointment to her, which sucks. as for my dad, he doesn't care what i do, i know this because he moved 564 miles away from his kids and he doesn't even call. I'm lucky if i talk to him once a month. It sucks because i haven't seen him in almost a year and i miss him, and he's not that healthy and my worst fear is him dying and me not being able to say 'goodbye'. sometimes i feel like I'm totally alone like I'm an orphan? my moms always working and my dad's gone and my brothers got his own life now. it's like if i was 'gone' would anyone notice? or care?
[seether - break me down, three days grace - wake up]
Monday, November 3, 2008
Reading.
This is going to sound kind of dorky and weird, but i LOVE reading.
I don't know why, but it's like when i read a book that i actually enjoy i get lost in it?
I love that feeling. It's like nothing else matters because I'm in the book.
I don't know how much of this makes since, but i don't know how else to explain it.
It's kind of like if i focus on the character's problems then mine kind of just vanish for a while. xoxo!
[rascal flatts - my wish]
I don't know why, but it's like when i read a book that i actually enjoy i get lost in it?
I love that feeling. It's like nothing else matters because I'm in the book.
I don't know how much of this makes since, but i don't know how else to explain it.
It's kind of like if i focus on the character's problems then mine kind of just vanish for a while. xoxo!
[rascal flatts - my wish]
11/3/2008
ugh. i want hot chocolate but my mom won't buy any! I have a major craving for it.
i feel really sick and blah. i don't know how to fix that.
i don't even know why I'm writing this i have nothing to say. I'm just lost? i feel like i have so much to do and at the same time i can't think of anything. ya know?
today in algebra 2, my class was talking about this party they all went to and how they got "fucked up. like ready to lay on the death bed kinda fucked up" <-- that's what some girl said. lol. apparently it turned into a big orgy or something?
i have a cut on my hand i don't even know how it happened i came home went to sleep woke up and my hand was cut. cool right?
my room annoys me. i want everything to match but NOTHING does. my room stress's me out. i hate my bed. it's literally falling apart. horrible, but my mom refuses to buy a new one. why? I'm not sure.
ah! so, Nichole Ungvary is officially my savior. she got me ring tones. :D you don't understand how much this excites me. lol.
tomorrow! i am walking down to Walgreen's and buying hot chocolate! NO! tomorrow i am walking down to Walgreen's and buying monsters! NO! i don't know. tomorrow I'm walking down to Walgreen's and buying either hot chocolate or a monster. they both sound really good right now.
in gym were moving into a new 'unit'. BASKET BALL! i guess i kinda like this better, because we have the choice of playing a real game.. or knock out. i played knock out. i won like 3-4 games. so that's cool. at the end of the 'unit' we have a 'skills test' and we have to stand on the foul line and shot 10 shots in 1 minute.
if we make:
10 - 100
9 - 90
8 - 80
7 - 70
6 - 60..
you get it? lol.
my foot is freezing! ha ha.
this is getting really long so I'm gonna end it.
xoxo!
[no music]
i feel really sick and blah. i don't know how to fix that.
i don't even know why I'm writing this i have nothing to say. I'm just lost? i feel like i have so much to do and at the same time i can't think of anything. ya know?
today in algebra 2, my class was talking about this party they all went to and how they got "fucked up. like ready to lay on the death bed kinda fucked up" <-- that's what some girl said. lol. apparently it turned into a big orgy or something?
i have a cut on my hand i don't even know how it happened i came home went to sleep woke up and my hand was cut. cool right?
my room annoys me. i want everything to match but NOTHING does. my room stress's me out. i hate my bed. it's literally falling apart. horrible, but my mom refuses to buy a new one. why? I'm not sure.
ah! so, Nichole Ungvary is officially my savior. she got me ring tones. :D you don't understand how much this excites me. lol.
tomorrow! i am walking down to Walgreen's and buying hot chocolate! NO! tomorrow i am walking down to Walgreen's and buying monsters! NO! i don't know. tomorrow I'm walking down to Walgreen's and buying either hot chocolate or a monster. they both sound really good right now.
in gym were moving into a new 'unit'. BASKET BALL! i guess i kinda like this better, because we have the choice of playing a real game.. or knock out. i played knock out. i won like 3-4 games. so that's cool. at the end of the 'unit' we have a 'skills test' and we have to stand on the foul line and shot 10 shots in 1 minute.
if we make:
10 - 100
9 - 90
8 - 80
7 - 70
6 - 60..
you get it? lol.
my foot is freezing! ha ha.
this is getting really long so I'm gonna end it.
xoxo!
[no music]
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Fact.
1. People piss me off beyond belief.
2. I bought gimp and I'm making stuff, i also got string-ish stuff and I'm making stuff out of that also.
3. I got a hair cut yesterday and i like it. I also got new boots.
4. I really miss my dad, i haven't seen him in almost a year.
5. My brother joined UFC and his first battle or match or whatever is on the 22nd.
6. Weight Watchers is working, but not fast enough!
7. I hate cheaters and backstabbers.
8. Yesterday i started reading two new books and I'm excited. I Love Reading. :]
9. I'm afraid of the dark,spiders, bugs, and people?
10. I love the end of the year because there's so many holiday's, you always have something to look forward to.
11. Being cold is fun, except in the morning. lol.
[escape the fate - the flood, kenny chesney - she thinks my tractors sexy]
2. I bought gimp and I'm making stuff, i also got string-ish stuff and I'm making stuff out of that also.
3. I got a hair cut yesterday and i like it. I also got new boots.
4. I really miss my dad, i haven't seen him in almost a year.
5. My brother joined UFC and his first battle or match or whatever is on the 22nd.
6. Weight Watchers is working, but not fast enough!
7. I hate cheaters and backstabbers.
8. Yesterday i started reading two new books and I'm excited. I Love Reading. :]
9. I'm afraid of the dark,spiders, bugs, and people?
10. I love the end of the year because there's so many holiday's, you always have something to look forward to.
11. Being cold is fun, except in the morning. lol.
[escape the fate - the flood, kenny chesney - she thinks my tractors sexy]
Friends.
Wanna know what i can't stand?
Bitches who think they know everything and ditch there friends for there "boyfriends" who live on the other side of the fuckin' country.
Example: Last night i was hanging out with friends and my friends boyfriend called her. So she answered the phone (we were outside) and walked to the other side of the yard to go talk to him. So my other friends and i wanted to go watch a video on the computer so we told our friend and she said she didn't wanna go in (because she was allergic to the cats) so we went in and the video wouldn't start so we were in there for like 5-10 minutes tops trying to start it. I go back out to check on my other friend and she's still on the phone with her boyfriend so i go down to try and start a conversation and she gives me attitude saying stuff like we ditched her when she was the one who left us. She said if we were good friends we would have came out and talked to her, and she would have gotten off the phone if we were out there. That's funny because we were out there and she moved away from us. So, i go back in to get my other friends and when we come back out she left and started walking down the street, so us actually CARING we go looking for her and we start walking near her and she walks away, but were trying to be nice so we keep walking towards her because she's out in the dark in the middle of the street alone. Then she decides to tell us [me] were [I'm] not a good friend.
My other friends are pretty amazing though. :]
KLMN!<3
xoxo!
[metro station - shake, story of the year - take me away]
Bitches who think they know everything and ditch there friends for there "boyfriends" who live on the other side of the fuckin' country.
Example: Last night i was hanging out with friends and my friends boyfriend called her. So she answered the phone (we were outside) and walked to the other side of the yard to go talk to him. So my other friends and i wanted to go watch a video on the computer so we told our friend and she said she didn't wanna go in (because she was allergic to the cats) so we went in and the video wouldn't start so we were in there for like 5-10 minutes tops trying to start it. I go back out to check on my other friend and she's still on the phone with her boyfriend so i go down to try and start a conversation and she gives me attitude saying stuff like we ditched her when she was the one who left us. She said if we were good friends we would have came out and talked to her, and she would have gotten off the phone if we were out there. That's funny because we were out there and she moved away from us. So, i go back in to get my other friends and when we come back out she left and started walking down the street, so us actually CARING we go looking for her and we start walking near her and she walks away, but were trying to be nice so we keep walking towards her because she's out in the dark in the middle of the street alone. Then she decides to tell us [me] were [I'm] not a good friend.
My other friends are pretty amazing though. :]
KLMN!<3
xoxo!
[metro station - shake, story of the year - take me away]
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Update.
Well, i haven't written on here in a while, 5 or 6 days? Anyways, so yesterday people came to fix my Fernes or heater or whatever. lol. But, apparently they broke it even more and now my hole house smells like gas and it's freezing. lol. i find it very funny, my mom.. not so much.
Speaking of my mom, she pisses me off. Beyond belief, i don't know why but i just can't stand her anymore. She does everything in her power to get me in a bad mood, and guess what it works. UGH!
So my grandmother got in a car accident. She passed out well driving and flipped her car. It was on Wednesday i think then she stayed in the hospital till Friday and she's been back since. My mom's like flipping out whenever i ask her a question she's like "how am i supposed to know my mother was just in the hospital for three days." I'm like "whatever." She makes it seem like she was hurt so bad. NOTHING was wrong with her except they kept her in just to see why she passed out.
Hm..i don't think there's anything else really to talk about. Oh. so i joined weight watchers 4 weeks ago. (i just ended my 4th week today) and I've been doing alright. In three-ish hours I'm gonna go get weighed and hopefully i did good. I think i did because my clothes are starting to get bigger on me and my scale says i lost like 4 pounds this week, but i don't know. I'm kinda worried because last week i thought i did really bad but i did good so this week i think i did good but i would've done bad. You can't really guess.
Now I'm kind of just rambling and i need to stop. lol. Oh. wait i have one more thing to say on Monday i broke my phone. So on Friday i got my number transferred to my old phone and they shipped me a new one and i got it today and it's working and yeah. This is my 3rd enV in 11 months. lol. Good stuff. Now I'm broke though, because it cost 50 dollars for the new enV and 10 dollars to switch my phone over each time so that's 70. Then two Fridays ago i went to lake compounce and that was like 30 dollars. So that's the hundred i had and now i have maybe like 15 in change. So, i gotta start saving up again. lol.
Well, now i think I'm done. NO! i lied lol. on Saturday it was homecoming i was supposed to hang out with Nichole and Carissa but Carissa was at six flags so me and Nichole and twill went to the haunted trail thing at chatfeild park. Then we went back to Nichole's house, and at like 10:30 we went to go pick up nick (which i wasn't to thrilled about) then we got back to Nichole's and yeah. Some stuff was funny, some was awkward, but it turned out better then i thought i guess. lol.
The day before so Friday. Me and Nichole went to go see Melissa and Kayla preform for the half time show at the football game. It was funny we got there right before they went on and left right after they got off. The dance team was eh.. i mean the dancers were good like they could dance but the choreography was really bad all they did was run and jump. lol.
Anyways now I'm definitely done. lol. i don't really think anything else happened.. lol. so yeah.. I'm done. xoxo!
Speaking of my mom, she pisses me off. Beyond belief, i don't know why but i just can't stand her anymore. She does everything in her power to get me in a bad mood, and guess what it works. UGH!
So my grandmother got in a car accident. She passed out well driving and flipped her car. It was on Wednesday i think then she stayed in the hospital till Friday and she's been back since. My mom's like flipping out whenever i ask her a question she's like "how am i supposed to know my mother was just in the hospital for three days." I'm like "whatever." She makes it seem like she was hurt so bad. NOTHING was wrong with her except they kept her in just to see why she passed out.
Hm..i don't think there's anything else really to talk about. Oh. so i joined weight watchers 4 weeks ago. (i just ended my 4th week today) and I've been doing alright. In three-ish hours I'm gonna go get weighed and hopefully i did good. I think i did because my clothes are starting to get bigger on me and my scale says i lost like 4 pounds this week, but i don't know. I'm kinda worried because last week i thought i did really bad but i did good so this week i think i did good but i would've done bad. You can't really guess.
Now I'm kind of just rambling and i need to stop. lol. Oh. wait i have one more thing to say on Monday i broke my phone. So on Friday i got my number transferred to my old phone and they shipped me a new one and i got it today and it's working and yeah. This is my 3rd enV in 11 months. lol. Good stuff. Now I'm broke though, because it cost 50 dollars for the new enV and 10 dollars to switch my phone over each time so that's 70. Then two Fridays ago i went to lake compounce and that was like 30 dollars. So that's the hundred i had and now i have maybe like 15 in change. So, i gotta start saving up again. lol.
Well, now i think I'm done. NO! i lied lol. on Saturday it was homecoming i was supposed to hang out with Nichole and Carissa but Carissa was at six flags so me and Nichole and twill went to the haunted trail thing at chatfeild park. Then we went back to Nichole's house, and at like 10:30 we went to go pick up nick (which i wasn't to thrilled about) then we got back to Nichole's and yeah. Some stuff was funny, some was awkward, but it turned out better then i thought i guess. lol.
The day before so Friday. Me and Nichole went to go see Melissa and Kayla preform for the half time show at the football game. It was funny we got there right before they went on and left right after they got off. The dance team was eh.. i mean the dancers were good like they could dance but the choreography was really bad all they did was run and jump. lol.
Anyways now I'm definitely done. lol. i don't really think anything else happened.. lol. so yeah.. I'm done. xoxo!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Breakdown.
I honestly think I'm having a mental breakdown. I can't stand this anymore. I hate practically everyone, and the few people I like are either to busy with there problems to talk or to far away. I get meaner and meaner everyday. I have no patience anymore for anything. I'm doing horrible in all my classes. I don't understand anything. I don't do anything but listen to music and sleep. I feel like no matter what i do everybody is judging me or no matter how good i do at something someone else did better and it's all about them or if i do something good people always have to point out the flaws. The problem is..this isn't just happening all of the sudden. It's just that I've held it in for so long that I've finally cracked.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Catastrophic Accidents.
Lately, I've been feeling really..lonely? i don't even know why. I mean me and my friends are all good and everything and my life really hasn't changed that much in the last 3 months, but i don't know. I've just been feeling really depressed lately. Like i always wanna go to bed really early even tho I'm not tied and i never wanna get up but I'm wide awake. It's like i just wanna sit in my bed and let my life pass me by. I just can't wait for Friday so i could get my cellphone and just come home and sleep. =\
well, i have a huge headache right now and i want silence, but if its quiet then i feel sick.. so I'm kinda screwed at the moment. =[
so.. i guess that's it for now?
well, i have a huge headache right now and i want silence, but if its quiet then i feel sick.. so I'm kinda screwed at the moment. =[
so.. i guess that's it for now?
Monday, October 13, 2008
Life in the fast lane.
OK.. so i don't really know what I'm even gonna write about? uh.. I'm basically just gonna bitch about what's been going on lately and stuff i guess. lol.
on Friday in gym (or P.E. or whatever you want to call it) we were planing cone ball and it's basically just some stupid game where you through balls at cones and people and try to either knock down all the cones or get out all the people. so. i was guarding a cone and helping my team and actually playing ( because usually i never do) and this kid _ _ _ _ _ throws a ball at my face and i swear it was going like 40mph. It hurt so bad i like grabbed my face turn and like ran out the door and my teachers flipping out on me for leaving and stuff but anyways.. now i have a black eye. it looks so bad. ugh, and tomorrow i have to go to school and people are gonna be like " omg what happened to you " i don't wanna hear that all day!
another thing..
i love my friends to death but, sometimes i feel like they i don't know look down on me? It seems like they feel like there better then me, and yeah i guess they are.. but, i don't know. They always tell me about there problems ALWAYS. and I'm OK with that because i want to help them. Then when i can't listen or i don't know what to say they get mad or there like "thanks for caring" and i just wanna get up and be like " I've listened to you bitch for 2 years and now yer gonna sit here and make it seem like i don't care?" I'd never have the guts to do it though.. if they listened to me when i bitched then it wouldn't be this big of a deal but i almost never complain to them ( at least i try not to) and i don't know. i just had to get that out.
To top it all off, my phone decided to break.. it spazzed out and i think like exploded? i don't know what happened but it's totally broken and i cant get it fixed until about Friday that's even if they can fix it. It's hard for me to go 5 minutes without texting now i have to go 5 days .. or LONGER! i don't know if i could do that. :'[
Well.. i guess that's it? i should probably go sleep.
on Friday in gym (or P.E. or whatever you want to call it) we were planing cone ball and it's basically just some stupid game where you through balls at cones and people and try to either knock down all the cones or get out all the people. so. i was guarding a cone and helping my team and actually playing ( because usually i never do) and this kid _ _ _ _ _ throws a ball at my face and i swear it was going like 40mph. It hurt so bad i like grabbed my face turn and like ran out the door and my teachers flipping out on me for leaving and stuff but anyways.. now i have a black eye. it looks so bad. ugh, and tomorrow i have to go to school and people are gonna be like " omg what happened to you " i don't wanna hear that all day!
another thing..
i love my friends to death but, sometimes i feel like they i don't know look down on me? It seems like they feel like there better then me, and yeah i guess they are.. but, i don't know. They always tell me about there problems ALWAYS. and I'm OK with that because i want to help them. Then when i can't listen or i don't know what to say they get mad or there like "thanks for caring" and i just wanna get up and be like " I've listened to you bitch for 2 years and now yer gonna sit here and make it seem like i don't care?" I'd never have the guts to do it though.. if they listened to me when i bitched then it wouldn't be this big of a deal but i almost never complain to them ( at least i try not to) and i don't know. i just had to get that out.
To top it all off, my phone decided to break.. it spazzed out and i think like exploded? i don't know what happened but it's totally broken and i cant get it fixed until about Friday that's even if they can fix it. It's hard for me to go 5 minutes without texting now i have to go 5 days .. or LONGER! i don't know if i could do that. :'[
Well.. i guess that's it? i should probably go sleep.
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