Crank.

I wanna leave this 'place'.
My plan is to graduate from seymour high, than move to ohio and go to OSU. ( that's all i got at the moment.)

I've been thinking alot about it though, and as much as i say "i want out" and "i'm gonna leave." Deep down I know i won't be able to. I'll graduate and probably end up going to southern like every other kid from seymour and living at home for possibly the rest of my fuckin' life.
..and that scares the crap outta me.
Right now my grades arn't that good and no matter how much i try they don't seem to be changing. I'm actually starting to listen to everyone when they tell me that i'm never gonna get anywhere.
I wanna be a vet and open my own animal shelter, but you know how friggin' smart you need to be to do that?
I don't wanna turn out like my dad or brother, i mean i love them to death, but they didn't / arn't doing anything with there lives. My dad is a high school drop out. My brother made it through high school but couldn't even get into a college. Now he works in a garage and lives at home still.
This blog probably makes no since, but it's basicly just me saying that no matter how bad i want to get out.. i know i'll never be able to and that's scary.